a bit less than two weeks ago, I underwent some surgery on the three "B's", bladder, butt, and babymaker. (yup, this included a hysterctamy.)
I wasn't going to write about it here, too personal and actually, a bit gross, even to me.
But I want to explain my absence.
My body is working differently.
What goes in must come out in one way, shape, or form, and I am having trouble with this. Its not easy, and there is pain and lots of time in the bathroom.
Healing is my priority right now.
Also, I am taking this fallow time to rethink my work focus and choices.
I had three galleries show my collages this year, with only one sale, and this might mean I need a new direction.
I am looking at some new options for how I spend my work time, and although taking the time to make art will always be what I do, blogging everyday about it might not be in the best interest of moving my work forward into the world.
I get so many hits here, and so few comments, this might be the Universe letting me know to move on, or maybe just post only now and then.
your feedback is welcome, I'll gather my thoughts and work and healing, then make some new plan for my artistic and work life.
Namaste.
"I thought my mountain was coming this morning. It was near to speaking when suddenly it shifted, sulked, and returned to smallness. It has eluded me again and sits there, puny and dull. Why?" --Emily Carr
What a surgery! I hope you recover fully and quickly, although these things take time- which can, in a way, be nice- sitting with yourself in stillness, asking the important questions and making space for the answers to come. I so enjoy visiting your blog, and as for the comments, your artwork may attract people who are primarily focused on 'being' rather than 'doing' (or saying)and perhaps like me are naturally introverts. (this is the first and only blog I've left a comment on) Whatever you decide to do, I will enjoy your blogposts, even if it's once-in-a-while or older posts. Thank you for your artistic expressions- a gift to this world.
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog a few days ago, and have really enjoyed your postings. I'm sorry you've had such a hard time with the surgeries - and hope that you feel better soon. Thanks for posting your work - I hope you do continue your blog, AND find the new directions you're looking for. :)
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