Wednesday, January 7, 2009

self expression = beauty

Visual images can be beautiful, and they can be chaotic.
I sometimes wonder about how to balance these two competing things.
My perfect journal pages are beautiful in their cluttery disorder.
For me, the illustratey kind of art, the kind that just shows one basic idea presented clearly or with one statement in mind, often is not very inspiring.
I look for confusion and complexity -- something my eye wants to linger over and wonder about.
I like many layers to images so I keep looking and then seeing more and more.
Many pages in my journal are not so pretty at first glance, but for me, the more I look the more I see, so I am satisfied with what they say for me, and what they look like.
and really, our world is so full of images that are meant to sell us stuff, images of sexy, young, plasticy-perfect humans, that beauty for me has to be something other than one clear image, more than the air-brushed perfection I am told is how things "should" look.
If I am reflecting my own inner chaos, the pages in my journal will be chaotic, messy, torn and ripped, perhaps spilling off the page, even.
The book will be fat and the binding worn and broken.
The book will have been around the block a few times, like me.
Thinking things should be "perfect" and unblemished is so LAST MILLENNIUM!
Not worrying, allowing lovely chaos and visual cacaphony - this is the new way to see things.

"Human life itself may be almost pure chaos, but the work of the artist is to take these handfuls of confusion and disparate things, things that seem to be irreconcilable, and put them together in a frame to give them some kind of shape and meaning." --Katherine Anne Porter


  1. Em,

    Thank you for your ATC which I just received it today...I will send back to you soon...:)

    I like them so much...^^


  2. I feel beauty for something to look pretty is cool in a journal. Beauty that show expression, feeling and flavor is so much more interesting in life and in your journals.
    I like the new look.

  3. i relate much to this... i find the complexity in chaos more inspiring and beautiful...

    the perfection, symmetry and harmony can absorb too by in a different way... nevertheless,they are not beating with today's rhythm...

    that's the reason i find your works beautiful... i love to stare at that chaos... to swim in that stormy sea to find new things...

    a calm sea is good when you want to rest... a stormy sea teaches you how to live...